your name is something which i nv want to forget
Thursday, October 8, 2009
ever since my grandma knew i smoked
i didn't have the courage to face her anymore
until today
i haven slp a wink from ytd till now
morning i was pretending to be asleep
my mum jus came and wake me up and said
wake up , go bring ur grandma to hospital
i knew she was sick
but i didn't went to visit her and stuff
when i heard what my mum said this morning
i knew it was smth bad
my sis drove her to TanTockSeng Hospital
throughout the journey there
i can even feel hw bad she is feeling
the service at TanTockSeng was way far from what i expected
i expected everything to be fast at the A & E
but everything took dam long
while waiting for her name to be called
she was already in pain alr
just that she didn't really say a thing
even during the part when they need her blood sample and stuff
i didn't even want to look
cuz i knew its not gonna feel good
at that pt,she was still worried about her hospitals fees and stuff
it was at that part when she said smth like
she didn't feel like living anymore
just saved the hospital fees
i just wanted so much to tear at that time
but i just try to hide my emotions
and believe it or nt
it doesn't sound like me
but i am tearing as i am typing this now
i just really feel like drinking tonight
can any kind soul accompany me?
>>>
the day.
2:06 AM
KEN 
